Friday, December 16, 2011

Catching up

So it has been incredibly long since I have wrote on my blog so I have a bit of catching up to do.

Let's see; my son obtained his license this past summer and currently owns not one but two cars. He bought a Lincoln Continental first and then realized how expensive the gas will be. He then was gifted a Blazer from my husbands aunt. We are in the process of replacing the cracked window and smog. However, it is Christmas time so that process is on the back burner.

My daughter is now in high school so now I am the mother of two high school attending teenagers. She has also broke my heart with her plea to move into her dads house. She and my husband are always at odds and I can not fix their relationship no matter how hard I try. I am crushed that after 14 years of raising her without her father, he can walk back in and be the greatest gift. I know she idolizes him and always have. It may be best for her to go and see that life will not be the dreamy garden she pictures it to be. But what if it is or what if she starts having troubles and does not feel she can come to me. What a tangled web.

I am days away from my 33rd birthday and I can not remember how I got here. I have had sever headaches for the past four months and my life seems to be a mess. My work is sucking the life out of me, my family is a hostile war zone and I am losing my mind! I thought that my life would never be as stressful as my childhood was but apparently I am wired to be a stress case. I continue to remind myself to breath and that one day we will look back on this time as just a time in our lives.

The only positive thing that I can say is going on my life is that I have become a part-time entrepreneur with a fun little online retail shop. Yes some people may find it inappropriate that I am selling sexual items but they don't know the whole story. So let me clear this up for you. I have a friend who has a horrible disease called LS and the main part of her body that is affected by the disease is her intimate parts - if you get my jest. She and her husband have been married for along while and he is an amazing man who has stood by her side through many things in there life. I thought about women and men like her who would appreciate tools to continue being romantic with their partners. Besides sex is an intimate and fun thing that should always have some spontaneity...and I can't think of a better way-can you?

Ok well I am not sure how often I will be updating this blog but I should let you in again.